I have never written anything that’s just impromptu. Tangential. Every piece I have written previously spent a lot of time being groomed in MS Word until they were ready for the internet. But this is different. I have had this great itch to write something, anything, for the past few days. Today I have had a few drinks, and I just started writing this post. I don’t even know what I am going to write about in the next couple of paragraphs.
I get restless when I don’t write. I want to write something. Anything. But more often than not, my thoughts are just too random to put into words. I need to be able to streamline my ideas and come up with a cohesive chain of thoughts which I can expand upon.
Sometimes I start writing some stories but lose interest in the plot midway and stop it altogether. When I revisit the story after a while, I’m often surprised to find that the plot was good, the story was coming along very well, but I had just lost interest. That’s my problem. Nothing truly keeps me occupied and engaged for a length of time. I get bored easily. If I do not get excited about a certain work/game/hobby, I just stop doing it. Often, I am in the middle of a work or something I started because it interested me, but then I lose interest and start doing something new, or something I previously left unfinished. I need to learn to power through stuff and complete them even after I lose interest.
Phew! It feels good to be able put all this down somewhere. It feels good to have written something. It feels good to let go of some of my pent up emotions that I have carried for so long. Like director Sukumar said, “zero emotions, zero enemies”.